“You tell me it gets better, it gets better in time
You say I’ll pull myself together, pull it together, you’ll be fine
Tell me, what the hell do you know? What do you know?
Tell me how the hell could you know? How could you know?”
This year has been a very upside down year for me. A friend of mine asked me to name something special from this year, and I didn’t came up with anything. It’s not that it hasn’t happened anything, just nothing special. It feels like I’ve been doing exactly the same thing that I usually do.
But don’t get me wrong, of course great things have happened, I still have a job that I love, at a daycare, with kids that fills my heart and soul with love everyday. And I also have my dancing, which been going great this year. I love my teachers who believes in me, and I even got something exciting going on ;)
Unfortunately, mentally this has also been a quite heavy year. Broken heart, friends giving up on me, mixed feelings like loneliness, not good enough and giving up hope are few of the causes.
But I’ve also learned a lot from that…
Like it’s better to have a couple of really good friends, who will stand by you whenever you need, than a bunch of people who just pretend to care. And also, surrounding yourself around positive people, and be one, will save you so much energy. Those who want to bring you or other people down are so insecure that they need to do that to feel better about themselves.
I don’t need that.
Regarding the love life, I can only say: I deserve better! I’m done with all the lies, disappointments and lack of respect. I am kind, I care, I am honest and put my heart on the line…and what do I get for that??
“You tell me hold your head up, hold your head up and be strong
Cause when you fall you gotta get up, you gotta get up and move on
Tell me how the hell could you talk, how could you talk?
Cause until you walk where I walk, this is no joke”
“Til’ it happens to you, you don’t know how I feel, how I feel
Til’ it happens to you, you won’t know, it won’t be real”